i start to feel sick to my life .
just want to get out of it .
it doesnt mean that i want my HK's life back .
but i do feel sick of everythin even HK .

talk to my fds last night ,
i remember i believe that life is balance .
u do smthin extra ,u will get back the same .
but just u dont know when u r goin to get it back .
maybe it is just lookin at my view .
others may think that i havent do that much extra .
i am tryi to encourage ppl ,but at the same time i am disencouragin myself .
i thought i will be happi when there is just one step to the final distination ,
but seems ,when i reach there ,no one will feel happi .
maybe i am expected to much ,that i shldnt be .

i just want my life change ,nothin old .
smtimes i do think i shld use to be stayin here .
i dont know wht i gotta to say ,just too -ve .

but for me ,i know wht is the reason i go for my studies too hard ,
i am doin everythin not for myself ,but parents and fds .
but who will think happi ,when i am goin to grad .
i thought i study for 3 majors at the same time is proofin my ability ,
but seems this is just nothin .
others may think that is not specific of yr studies ,not proofin yr ability .
ha .nvm ,i know wht i am doin ,but not for anyone else .